I think the healthy thing to do is to accept the fact that it’s never going to work. It may be heartbreaking but at least you can try to enjoy other things, and move on when you are ready.
False hope in love… it’s gonna kill your sanity.
Some days I am overwhelmed by sadness and negative feelings. I can’t help but live the most depressed version of myself.
Today, I am still sad. But I am overwhelmed by the feeling of loving her. Who cares if it will never be? I am happy if she’s happy.
I said I like you I like you
but I love you to the bones
I said it’s okay it’s okay
but I am shattered I am cold
we are friends we are the best of friends
but I know I know
if you don’t love me I will one day fade away
I write I have to write
I can’t share my joy and sorrow with you anymore
I can’t tell you about my day anymore
I can’t have you by my side anymore
It is getting harder to smile when all I think about is you with him
Oh, I didn’t know I am still so fragile
I hate this I hate him
perhaps I am jealous
but I hate that he brings you down
I hate that he takes your time and cages you in
I hate that I care about this so much
why why why
You told me I should love myself more
so I know how to love others better
I am still trying to figure out how
when I just want to give all my love to you
is this why is this why you don’t love me
perhaps I should learn to be more selfish
I was sad
I was lost
I was angry
I am just going to love you until I can’t anymore
No matter how many times, how many years
That’s the only thing I know how to do
I never learn
