simply journal

“I am actually okay if no one can understand exactly what I am going through; though I think you do empathize quite intensely. I think it’s okay because that means this not-so-great experience is mine alone. I wasn’t seeking empathy or sympathy, but rather, I simply wanted to tell the people, whom I care about, a story as if we are having this conversation, “did you eat?” “No, I am starving.” “Let’s get some food then.”

I think all I really need is someone to have that conversation with, otherwise, I wouldn’t want to get food by myself. The eating part is still on my own. I am not sure where I was going with that metaphor. What I am trying to say is: Even though your kind heart makes you wish you can do more, you are doing just fine – actually more than enough. Everyone has their own fights and struggles. This one is my greatest foe, it may even be a lifelong fight. It’s like I am in the ring boxing. You are part of that cheering crowd. You are a great encouragement to me. So thanks for coming out. Thanks for being there. And thanks for cheering for me.

I am not sure where I was going with that metaphor. What I am trying to say is: Even though your kind heart makes you wish you can do more, you are doing just fine – actually more than enough. Everyone has their own fights and struggles. This one is my greatest foe, it may even be a lifelong fight. It’s like I am in the ring boxing. You are part of that cheering crowd. You are a great encouragement to me. So thanks for coming out. Thanks for being there. And thanks for cheering for me.

Talking about it does make it feels better.

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